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Selena Gomez was all smiles on camera at the American Music Awards during her opening performance and any shots taken of her in the crowd later. But behind the scenes, Gomez felt a lot of anxiety before taking the stage at the award show to sing there for the first time in two years. A source told E! that before her performance, “Selena definitely had anxiety and a panic attack before she went out and was putting a lot of pressure on herself.”
Billboard confirmed there were some technical audio issues during “Lose You to Love Me” and “Look at Her Now” opening number. But Gomez put on a sassy and energetic display on stage despite them. Her friend Taylor Swift was a big supporter in the audience.
A fan there noted after the performance, Gomez seemed a little critical of herself despite the praise she received from the crowd and her Selenators.
On Instagram, Gomez wrote about her happiness being back on stage though. She captioned a shot of herself on the red carpet, “Feels good to be back. Thank you to my entire team and to my fans that stand by me. All of this is for you and because of you. excited for this chapter #sg2 @amas ?”
Gomez has gotten treatment for depression and anxiety and took time off last year to more actively seek treatment. In an interview with her friend Raquelle Stevens that was released earlier this month, Gomez spoke about how faith and her friends help her pull through her hard times.
“My faith for sure [helps me when I’m feeling depressed or anxious],” Gomez told Stevens, starting to get a little emotional. “It’s probably your fault that I’m crying. Yes, I think once I started to really understand my spirituality, and believing in something much bigger than myself was very important for me. Because I don’t believe that I can do this life alone. I know that we’re not perfect. I know that what I read in the Word that I live in is all kinds of stories of pain and trials and redemption and restoration, so I believe that so much, but it’s my friends too. You guys help me through a lot of it and you walk through most of it with me.”